Hi people,

I won't be updating much anymore. Not in the mood to update about my birthday either. However, it was a success. Thanks to stumbo.

I don't know why you ain't even caring about me. Wonder why is it things turn out this way yet you seems as though you have no emotions no nothing. I wonder, do you even love me in the first place. I just hope whatever mummy said won't come true. I miss you no matter if you still care for me anymore. I've broke down and I can only learn to be strong without you.

I'm sorry to all E² peeps. I know I've not been doing well this past few days. Not to even mention I kept skip school. Sorry. I hope you guys can forgive me. I have my personal reasons. All I can say is, I love you guys. Really sorry.

Love is a wonderful gift, shared by two blessed souls.
Experiencing heaven on earth.

Finally, I've turned 18, a legal age.

Yeap, happy birthday to Cassy. However, why am I not feeling happy? Stumbo, thanks for all the effort you put in for my birthday celebration. I love you to every bits. Though I kept saying that I don't put high hopes in having a surprise, still I'm already felt grateful to all the efforts. Stumbo, sorry for giving you attitude this two days. But still, you can & you never will understand how I feel.

I feel like I'm such a useless crap shit. Am I still being immature, doesn't know how to manage & plan my things well? I don't know la. Felt so irritated, felt so out of place. Had been crying every single day since Wednesday. Only stumbo sees it yet he doesn't know how to cheer me up. I've never blame him, its all my fault. If only I know how think when I'm 16. Maybe I wouldn't have any regrets. The biggest mistake of my life now & I can't change it anymore.

However, come to think of it, if I hadn't got into Engineering, I wouldn't have know this bunch of lovely friends. Those who stood by me, listen to my woes & all. BIG BIG thanks to Grace, Joel, Larlene, Yessy, Audrey, Shihong, Nat, Likha & etc. You girls make my day. I love all of you. I don't really know how to express myself right now. All I feel are tears in my eyes. To those who I didn't mention, it doesn't mean that I forgotten you peeps. Thanks alot. Lastly, BIG BIG thanks to WSS guys who help stumbo to make my birthday come true. Kiawei (though you kept bullying me), Wenwei (though I didn't talk to you much), Boonhoe (Nice to bully & chat with) & Colin (keep disturbing me). Though sister (Gerry) can't make it to my birthday & didn't even send me a message, still wanna say, I MISS YOU! Miss bullying you though. Haa!

Had our first E² meeting last night. At the very end, they surprise me with a cake & two present. Omg, thanks alot peeps. I love you guys! I might be irritating & I don't know whatever you think of but you guys never fail to keep cheering me. Thanks alot!

Stumbo, I still wanna say thanks to you. Love you super much. Remember to tell your mummy thanks for helping me to make make my birthday a success.

Love is a wonderful gift, shared by two blessed souls.
Experiencing heaven on earth.

Okay, I'm seriously too busy to update my blog. However, I will try to update whenever I can. This few weeks are mtc, week zero, & then school reopen. Well, kept training for regatta for week zero. Super tired but did enjoy in some ways.

As for week zero, quite contented with my freshies. Though they might be "naughty" in some ways, at least they listen to me when I'm doing serious stuff. If I've got no other mentor partner, week zero would be perfect. Don't wanna mention much on him.

Okay, I've got into E² Matrix main comm as publicity. Yeap, quite happy la (:

Anyway, today wasn't a good day for me. Its a new start in school. Its not about the time table and everything. Its just some things. At least something really cheer me up. Thanks to Grace & peeps. I love all of you la! You guys really let me know what friends are. Almost cancel my birthday celebration since I though that MY BEST FRIEND don't even wanna turn up. I don't need a present or whatever, just you being present. Is that really too much? I don't know but neverminds, things are over. Okay, so anyway, wheelbarrow crash with my birthday celebration & so I thought of canceling it since almost everyone in E², SME & BB are joining. Yet, Grace called me & tell me she & the rest not going for wheelbarrow event & come for my birthday. I really love them la. They kept askng me not to cancel. Omg, seriously, at that point, I almost cried! They are just friends who I can clique with. I didn't even go out with them before & everything yet they put their heart for my birthday. Thanks alot girls. I really love you all loads. You peeps make my day (:

Thereafter, "argued" with stumbo la. I already not in the mood yet he wanna go meet his friends. He didn't even know what I'm angry with. So I left & collect my PINK bagpack which stumbo bought for me. Not that happy though because he didn't accompany me ): Went popular & artbox. Bought a 10bucks pencil box. Heart pain la! So expensive. Haaaa! Walked to aunt house. Stumbo didn't even msg me! ): So I called him blahblah. Ended up he say he outside my aunt house -.- Stupid boy right? & he bought me a heart rose choco :D Happy girl la! :DDDD

Okay, off to do my things already. Bye people. I love my stumbo (:

Love is a wonderful gift, shared by two blessed souls.
Experiencing heaven on earth.

Hey yo people. Its already 4.30am in the morning & I'm having dragonboat, regatta training at 9.30am, not to even mention meeting friends at 8.30am for breakfast. I'm still thinking if I should sleep in order to wake up tomorrow. Boyf is sure going to give me hell for this -.-

Before I post, I got things to announce. I got two more things to add on for my wistlist for birthday. Muahahaha!
1.Hard-disk, I don't know if there's a pink one ):
2. DIGITAL CAMERA! I know there's pink for this though :D
& now, personal wistlist (buying for myself): Sports bra =P

Anyway, Tuesday's main comm interview is alright. However, I don't think I did a good job. I'm sorry. At least I will learn. After interview, ate dinner with me & went home. He stayed till mummy came back. At least he managed to catch his last bus.

Regatta training yesterday was alright. & I believe my pacing & Grace's is the same. At least we are happy with our own partner. After training, most of us went to play basketball. Super fun uh! Love regatta's peeps alot. A whole bunch of crazy fellas. Haaa! I even play VOLLEYBALL with Shihong. She's the smallest, cutest & the NOSIEST one among us. Glad to found another volleyballer (: After bathing, Jeff, Chris, Shihong, Jeannie & I went Toa Payoh to have dinner. I don't kno if boyf is shock to see me but one thing for sure, we are freaking noisy. Ordered too much & then we had to play games to foreit loser eat the food. LoL! New scandal, Jeannie & Chris. Muahaha! Jeannie is so gonna kill me =X Waited for boyf to end work & home-sweet-home.



Jeannie & Shihong.




**Video shall update tomorrow. Super lazy now =X

This few days really let me understand what kind of friend you are. You are someone I trust the most, I dote on the most yet things turn out this way. Its not the first time I hear things about you saying about me & all, I tolerate it because I choose to trust you, because I choose to believe you will see the difference in me. Nevermind if whatever you said to the rest about me is untrue, but what I'm angry with is you, being a friend, doesn't know who I really am yet kept spreading things about me. Though some people will still stand by me & speak up for me etc, I'm still really really very disappointed in you. Disappointed that you have this little faith in me. I don't think I wanna say much. If you know who you are, please go think about it. Its no point to keep reminding you that I prefer you to tell me my bad points in front of me when you are someone whom you believe you, yourself is right.

P/s: Don't assume I'm talking about you. You can confirm with me if this post is refering to you & I will tell you the truth. However, this shows that you are guilty conscience for treating me this way then (:

I decided to sleep before I can't row tomorrow. Hope I can wake up ):

Love is a wonderful gift, shared by two blessed souls.
Experiencing heaven on earth.

Oh hello people.

Regatta training was canceled yesterday & everyone went to play basketball & squash. It was my first time playing squash & I super love it. Thanks June for teaching though. Thereafter, had dinner with boyf, Jeff, June, Wendy & Shihong. Boyf send me home thereafter.

My hands are aching now. Haaa! Though the ball is freaking small & the racket is light, after playing for long, its very tiring. Main comm interview later. Zzz. Nervous la -.- Meeting Jeanie 1pm at mushroom for lunch. She's another cute little girl whom I met recently. Weee~ Know loads of new friends. Happy (:

Off to watch my show. Bye people.

Love is a wonderful gift, shared by two blessed souls.
Experiencing heaven on earth.

Les, Joy & Clar.


Amazing Race 6, lazy to upload tons of photos:





Dislike me, fuck off then, stupid bitch(:

Love is a wonderful gift, shared by two blessed souls.
Experiencing heaven on earth.

Okay okay, I'm back to blogging. However, I'm still not in the mood to upload photos.


Many things happen recently. Yeap, & I finally understand what kind of girl is she. Totally disappointed. Anyway, MTC was a blast with SURVIVOR. Knew many new friends. Happy! Regatta training on Tuesday, Friday, Monday, Tuesday again. School gonna reopen real soon. Hope I got into Mentor. June is finally back from Japan after 2 weeks. I miss her uh! Haa.


Anyway, Monday was the BBQ for graduating seniors. Well, I hope everyone enjoyed. Boyf said I did well for a starter. Happy! Been sick on & off ever since MTC. Fever, cough, flu blahblah. Yesterday boyf took MC from school because he's down with fever too. Went to his house & took care of him since morning. By evening, he had already recovered. Boyf's daddy fetched boyf, Zp (boyf's brother) & I to Roma to had dinner. Zp so so funny la! & I can't believe I spend money got damn fast -.- Boyf send me home after that.


Gonna go out with Clarissa later. I feel so sick _l_ Off to rest. Bye people.


Birthday is coming, here's a list of what I want =X
1. F480, PINK!
2. Anna Sui's perfume, NIGHT OF FANCY
3. I still want a PSP, PINK ):
4. Money -.-
5. PINK bagpack
6. Dior's shades
7. Clothes!
8. Face moisturizer
9. PINK laptop bag
10. PINK wallet


I can't think of anything else I want. Haaa! My 18th birthday celebration details will be updated another time (:

Love is a wonderful gift, shared by two blessed souls.
Experiencing heaven on earth.