Lunch break!!! Finally, its getting more boring everyday at work. Ain't feeling very good now. I mean, my heart. Okay, so went to ate dinner w/ les & twinni. Twinni came fetch me from work. Train-ed down to roma. Les was late but still it was fun after that. Went to took neoprint. Turn out still not bad though. Slack at MRT platform. Train-ed home after that. Twinni walked me back. 4 months ago, we sat at my house downstairs discussion whether if twinni should woo 7yrs. 4 months later, should break up anot =.= Nevertheless, I believe they can pull it through together. I give them my blessing (:

Going to steamboat w/ les later. We both go tian mi mi agn. Rofl, so fun(: Before that, meeting those Jap students awhile. Going Clark Quay then Marina. Aww, I miss my les! Teehees! Stupid office computer, block away loads of website. No imeem, no MSN! I can't chat w/ my les. Both our sms explode le. Hahahah! Has been sms-ing each other alot. Lmao.

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni

Hohoemi ga aru toiu yo

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni

Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo

Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa

Nani ga bokura wo matteru?

Nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni

Tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi

Ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo

Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni

Ima wa mae he susume

Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni

Shiawase ga matsu toiu yo

Boku wa mada sagashite iru

Kisetsu hazure no himawari

Kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba

Akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru

Kodoku ni mo nareta nara

Tsuki akari tayori ni

Hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou

Motto mae he susume

Amagumo ga kireta nara

Nureta michi kagayaku

Yami dake ga oshiete kureru

Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari

Tsuyoku mae he susume

TRANSLATION:

It's said that there is a smile

On the opposite side of sadness

It's said that there is a smile

On the opposite side of sadness

Up ahead from where

I'm going to arrive at

Just what is it that's waiting for me?

I should have set off, not to run away

But to chase my dreams, back on that far off summer day

If I could have even seen what tomorrow would be like,

I wouldn't have been able to breathe

So now I move forward

In order to go against the current,

like a boat

It's said that happiness waits

In places that have been consumed by sadness

I'm still searching for

A sunflower at the end of the season

If I clench my fists,

and wait for the morning sun to come

After my finger nails became bloody,

my tears would fall

If I've grown used to being lonely

By the moonlightI'll fly away with my featherless wings

I'll move futhur on ahead

If a rain cloud bursts

Then the wet road will sparkle

That's what the darkness tells meThe strong,

strong lightI'll move forward,

and be strong

Somehow, it relates me ):

PS: Can't live w/o my les =x [I'm straight though]

Yipee~ Finally I can rest =x Was real busy for the past few days. At first, so wanted to blog about the Japanese students, but come to think of it, the pictures are so freaking much. So decided to blog something [which you will know later] instead of the post of Japanese.



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My les is so interested in their photos. Wanna let her wait till after 2nd October then update. Hahahahahah! I'm such an evil les =x Lmao, she's so gonna kill me.

Was thinking this question whole day and still, I don't get an answer. "What are true friends?" Ended up, I decided, I'm so gonna go back like how I used to be. Treating everyone as friends & just friends, nothing more, nothing less. However, there will always be someone that I will be there for that person no matter what. Whenever that person needs me, give me a ring (: && that person will be my les, Denise Neo Chai Hoon :D *Les, are you touched? =x*

This post shall actually be my venting post. Something more to like, after venting it out & to who I wanna say, I will changed after that. I won't be calling you guys [those people I wrote it to later] like how I used to. Because I always believe that friends will call you when they misses you, even if you've got nothing to chat about. Friends will care for you when you're sick. Friends doesn't only call you when they needs you. So .... What are friends?

So I guess I shall start w/ the one I most disappointed in?

Twinni: Remember I said before that twinni is just a status? Actually that is the start of everything le. You said my attitude should. I don't deny. I really have to change. & yes, I will. Remember what we chat about when we are in the taxi? I've already sorted out my feelings le. I wouldn't want my "twinni" to be so flirt. I hope you get what I mean. Moreover, if you notice, I seldom talk to you already. I guess time will take place for us to become only "Hi-Bye" friend? Its fun if you find someone who look quite like you, character same as you, w/o speaking also can communicate. However, th prob is, can you maintain this r/s w/ each other? I don't mind you go a girlf or what. Your girlf is also my 7yrs friend. But did you ever thought of my feeling when I'm w/ you both? I had enough of this feeling & therefore, I didnt wanna get close w/ you both recently. All I can say now is, up to you to see how you wanna pull this r/s back. Twinni, remember this. Twinni also got feeling. Think about those days where you promise me you gonna accompany yet when your girlf call, you broke all promise. How will I feel then? That day when you finis your exams, she was sleeping & you had nobody to accompany you. Who is the one beside you? But when I need someone, will you be there? Think about it.

MGR: Everthing has change isn't it? You ain't longer the MGR I knew. At first, it was ME who called you MGR but this "MGR & MR" thingy no longer exist b/w the both of us. Remember how did this come about in the first place? I know you will be reading my blog. However, I don't know if you will call me & asked me about it. I don't know if you get that hint that I'm disappointed in those msg-es when we sms. Still I think I wanna make it clear here. Imagine, if I were to be quite close to you at first, & out of sudden, I MIA. Awhile later, I appear again but its because I'm bored or what. How will you feel? After putting down the phone, I MIA again. Seriously, have you ever care about my feelings? Out w/ them, never even ask me along. Nice one to you 3 eh? Hmm, if time were to turn back, I rather not give you my no. If then, I wouldn' have known you. I wouldn't have been so hurt.

7yrs: Time flies eh? We've know each other for 7yrs already. However, did you feel that bariar b/w us? That day when we were talking things out, I was quite happy. In fact, I saw that slight change in you. But still, I'm disappointed. Why? Its because your care & concern still ain't there. You have always live in your lala land since I've know you. You never care about my feelings, maybe you do, at times. When got things on, you then call me or text me. Other then that, nothing. I really treasure this f/s w/ you. Up till that day when you said that sentence, I gave up. I treated you as friends only. I know you will feel weird. I didn't talk to you, how come this post includes me? In overall, I just wanna say it, because after today, I won't be text-ing or calling people on my records unless there's something important. I just hope you understand what I mean.

Actually still got alot more people. Just being lazy to type. =x Moreover, need to sleep early. Its been a month yet I'm still coughing ): Who will be there anyway?

Update when I'm free. This holiday ain't that bad afterall. Tell ya why when the next update. Gosh, I'm so in love w/ KNCT students. Kawaii des!

2more weeks & everything is gonna end ): I will miss them uber loads.

Vexed yet don't dare to face it.

I WANT GO JAPAN! =x

Heyo people! I'm effing bored at work. Therefore came to update awhile. Since I'm super vexed anw. Although I've got like still 60+ mails not cleared in my Singpost email, I've got no mood to do at all. Hais, I don't know what I'm thinking lah.

Anw, was so sick yesterday that I didn't go to work. Twinni bought lunch for me & he came my house to chat for like 5hours or so? Lmao, supposed to swim but marmie don't allow since I'm sick. So watched television whole night.

I SWEAR THIS IS THE WORST HOLIDAY I'VE EVER HAD.

Went to work today. Ain't late :D Later going to fetch the Japanese students at the airport at 8pm. I'm so excited! =x Gonna rush home to change then go school to finish up the poster.

What's past has already past. What the hell am I thinking. Everything is impossible. Let call it no fate then. Hais, I'm so afraid of commitments already. Seriously, why is relationship so complicated. I just wanna be myself, the girl that I know. It seems so impossible. Hadn't I tried it last time, have I forgotten that hurt it gave? Girl, wake up from your dream. I swear I will. I have to stand strong. Wish them all the best, smile & everything is find. I've gotta see them almost everyday isn't it? So why am I living in misery? Give me time to be alone, if I ignore you both at times. Sorry.

I hate the girl who I am now. By year 2, I swear, I'm so gonna change. Be it physically or mentally. Sorry if I became quiet & not hyper anymore. I'm sick & tired of myself already.

My leg is so damn numb -.- I sat in the office till my back hurts. I'm so not gonna take office job when I grow up. So not suitable for me. Urgh, gotta rush my stuff. So many things yet so little time ):

Okay, finally I'm back to blogging. First, I would like to say, I'm so not gonna care that childish spammer on my tag. I've deleted & ban him. I'm already 17, don't argue w/ childish people. Moreover, this is my blog, I've got my rights to put whatever I want, as long as its not against the law.


Afterall this playing, I'm sick. Sick like shit. Down w/ cough, flu & headache. I didn't go work today. Super sick. & my throat hurt like _|_ Hais, I so wanna recover!

I'm afraid on my phone calls. LOL! My smses also. Omg, LOL! Maybe you asked me privately, & I shall tell you. Well, I'm so happy lah! Sister bought a new lappy. She intended to give me her pinky(Vaio, pink) but then after some arguments yesterday, they've decided to give me that new lappy, she named it bakie though =.= Well, I'm so happy. Thx sister! I know that you care, but I dislike people controlling me. Sorry anw, thanks alot! I love you lah! Muacks! hahahah!

Cassy, 18, 24th April 1991.
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