Y Thursday, November 20, 2008 Y
I can't believe
I'm actually crying now. I got my
rants to say, but some things can't say it out in here. This is
shit, this is
crap. Oh,
f*** it.
Gerry:
Thanks alot sister. Although we have many different point of view, you didn't shout at me, you didn't scold me but still giving me advise patiently. W/o a doubt, you are always there for me. I can talk about everything & anything under the moon to you and still, you believe.
Thanks alot. I may have let you down by doing stupid things. You nag at me but I know its for my own good.
Sister, you gotta stay strong alright? I know you yourself is sad deep down in your heart. You may have not tell me everything of how you felt but whenever you need a listening ear,
I will always be there for you. You are graduating soon, oh god, I can't imagine days w/o you in school.
No one to bitch w/ me, no one to joke w/ me.
Sister, I will miss you man. Take care of yourself while in navy okay?
Sisterly love(:
ZX:
I'm sorry, that's the only words I can think of. Many said you were feeling super down this one week.
Really sorry. I need time to face you again. Its not I wanna avoid you, I just don't know how to face you. Sister always warn me, "
don't do until friends also cannot be." If one day, we are back as friends, I hope that you can respect me like how sister respect sammy. Give me time to face everything again.
Sorry & take care.
Larlene: We may have been back as friends like normal, but I have never forget what happen that night. After a long thought,
I realize its my mistake.
I'm sorry. Like you say, we can never clique. But somehow & don't know why,
I always wanted to be good friends w/ you. When I told Gerry about us, he asked me, "
Is Larlene a friend that you don't mind losing it?" I replied him, "Yes". & he asked me, "
Then why are you so sad?" It was then he said, "
You are sad because she's someone that you wanna treasure. It just that you didn't realize she had already be part of your life since you both were in the same school all the while." It was then I realize, in fact, I treasure you that's why I didn't wanna quarrel w/ you, that's why I told you about my stuff. Although it may not be all, but still, I really do love you as a friends.
Sorry Quek. My bad.
Denise: Les, its been long since we last met. I know you are angry w/ me for doing something so stupid.
I promise you, I will make it very little okay? Very random. I miss you badly. 9 more days & you are moving. So happy lah. However, at the same time, I just felt that
we drifted apart. Really don't want this les love to go down the drain. I don't know if its me who think too much or that's the fact.
Just felt that you no longer really care anymore. Sorry les, sorry that I felt this way. I miss you les. Wanna hug you lah =/ You used to be the one who is there for me but ever since you move to so far, its so seldom that we meet. Nevertheless,
you are someone that I will keep in my heart. Someone that I think of frequently. Thanks for the everything for this past 4 years. I love you(:I choose to give up. Heading sister's advise. Not wanting to think so much. Moreover, it is more & more clear that he won't even like me. So well, friends we shall be. I will treasure this friendship.
I'm going to stand strong. Facing everything alone isn't that scary right? I must get used to it.
