Y Friday, October 10, 2008 Y
Wtfcuk, I effing regret taking up this bloody job. Kns, I received my pay today. Wahlao, its not what I calculated. All my hope going Japan suddenly gone. I need a better job w/ higher pay man! Fuck (.__. t) Damn pissed off.
Everyone is slacking today. Cause big aunt went for employee building training or something like that. Lmao. I'm late for an hour =.= As usual though. Urgh, Pissed off still. I thought this month got like, 1k can? Fuck fuck fuck. Angry! @#$%^&*(@#$%^&*
Anw, home sweet home after work last night. Thereafter, meet Jay & Zyndie to settle some stuff. Ended up, never really talk what we wanna say. I've forgiven her already so its alright. Back home at 9.30pm? Eyecandy never online so email-ed to his phone. Lmao.
Mass conver again. This time 2 mass conver. One conver on gossiping which of cause, includes ZhenYing. She's my gossip queen. Lmao. Another is w/ Wing and peeps discussing outing today. Oh well, yesterday I can seriously no need internet, just MSN. So busy lah. I watched "Life" till episode 7 already. So happy :DDDDDD
While gossiping w/ ZhenYing, ShiHui, Meixuan about the Japanese students. Mainly on Shota & Eyecandy, eyecandy came online suddenly. Worst still, I was showing them eyecandy's picture send by ShiHui. Hope eycandy didn't see it. Haha. & I'm so happy. Once he online, he straight away talk to me. Woots~ & he initiated the chat! (:
However, awhile later, he needs to go back study cause their essays due date today. Megumi also busy writing essays. It seems like they are doing homework EVERYDAY. Anw, bitch w/ Clarissa yesterday too. So funny. Topic is Clar started and its on HER. Lmao.
Decided to go chompchomp after a mass arguing where to eat dinner at. I wanted steamboat T_T but that baka Alvin don't want. Lol, then decided next time steamboat. Well, about at 1am[Japan: 2am], eyecandy came back. Chatted w/ him & I realize he's not so self centred anymore lah. He can talk anything over the moon to me. So happy. Still can shoot me lah. Thanks eh? Lmao. Then ZhenYing they all say we damn sweet .____. ZY, don't forget MASA they all. Haha. JAPAN JAPAN, here TP students come~
15 more minutes to lunch. I'm so gonna sleep. Haha. Chat till 3am w/ eyecandy. Yawn! Work sucks! Pay sucks, everything sucks =.=
I wanna find new job ASAP! Any lobang? T_T
I don't know why the hell I cried for him AGAIN. Zzzz, kill me please. Thanks to Jay, that ass. Sms those shit. Whatever, I don't want care anymore. I live for myself. Everything not going back to what it is suppose to be. Enjoy the life of you both. Just fuck care me. Since you both only had each other in mind and not me isn't it? So why all those fake cares?
Bee, I miss you. I miss you so damn much. Don't you know? I miss your hugs, I miss your kisses, I miss everything about you. Have you forgotten the way you used to piggyback me? Have you forgotten those days where you would hold onto my hand and walk me home? Have you forgotten those days that you say you love me? Everything is gone now. What I can only do is cry. & you said, I gotta be strong. Don't you remember those days when I wanted you to get out of my life, you cried & I said I love you? I didn't ask you to stand strong because I know there's always me around. Yet you asked me to stand strong and left me so cruelly. Whenever I wanna let go, you ask me not to and I give in. Why can't it be the other way round. Why is it you can let go so easily now? Boy, you know you hurt me way too much now? As I wrote this, my heart is so damn hurt. You said you felt that heart ache while quarreling w/ me yesterday. Then why did you let go? Why? Don't worry. I will fulfil the last promise we had. I will live a better life. A life w/o you. Goodbye, bee.
PS: Don't fake as though you care..
Love is a wonderful gift, shared by two blessed souls.
Experiencing heaven on earth.
