Y Wednesday, October 15, 2008 Y
Oh god, guess what? I did 2 stupid thing yesterday that cause my mood all the way down to the drain T_T Just because I had this seriously problem of, "think what, do what. & its immediate", blame me ): Oh well, I'm so dumb. Really feel like killing myself can? (._. t)
I'm so emo now but I think I'm so much better than yesterday. Anw, I should have guess it, isn't it? =.= Oh man! Super super can't take the fact. No more holding on to both things. I will let it go, maybe thats the best. Even for me, no more having heart breaking times or whatever. Well, my fault, my responsible.
Anw, as I mention earlier, I went to meet bearbear to get back my shoe back. However, I so don't want to go alone, text Pamela to ask her to accompany me but its Elizaberth's birthday so, she can't make it. Moreover, she went to the apartment yesterday. Oh, Pamela is Colin's girlfriend. One of them who stay in the apartment too (:
After knowing Pam can't, I don't know what to do. Lucky Pam asked me to text Samantha as she always wanted to see the apartment, yet don't want go alone. Sam is the girl that Gerry love, another guy who stay in the apartment. Hah! So well, I keep bug Sam to go w/ me & she agreed! However, she will be leaving at 730pm to meet her friend for dinner. So ended work and met her at school's west gate. Waited for bearbear to come pick us up. I didn't tell them I brought Sam as I wanted to surprise Gerry :D
So well, the rest are still in school's lab while bearbear, Sam & I went up to the apartment. Time flies, an hour is over and Sam had to leave. Bearbear tempt Sam to come back by Almond Jelly. I was laughing like hell lah. Hahah! Greedy Sam~ So she agree to come back at 9+. Bearbear & I went to meet the rest at school's overhead bridge. Went over to prime to get food and back to apartment to cook. 5 guys, 1 girl =.= Bearbear did the cooking while the rest gay in the room & I use to computer. Lmao! By the time Sam came back, we just started dinner. Gerry was super shock to see Sam cause they didn't thought I was close to her & they thought I will bring sister. So funny lah. Finish dinner, had almond jelly. Super nice :D Time to go home, so bearbear & Gerry send the both of us down. Cab-ed back w/ Sam. Did enjoy last night. & thanks bearbear for the meal :D Thanks Sam for accompaning me.
I'm in love w/ this 2 songs & Bump Of Chicken, introduced by Yuki.
BUMP OF CHICKEN - 天体観測
BUMP OF CHICKEN - スノースマイル
Woots! I'm so gonna highlight my hair later. So happy. Hope there's enough time eh. Lmao. && TOMORROW IS MY LAST DAY OF WORK. Start to got that will miss everything here, the feeling ): But still, I'm happy~! & tomorrow is Jeff's birthday chalet.
I'm starting to lost all my confidence in everything I do. I don't wish to give up, but circumstances force me to. I got to stand strong..
PS: 私はあきらめます..私の心は空っぽです..
Love is a wonderful gift, shared by two blessed souls.
Experiencing heaven on earth.
