Y Sunday, August 3, 2008 Y
VEXED~!
I don't know why, but I still wanna update. Just got that sudden feeling of being so stress. Its like, ever since broken up w/ WeiYang, I lost trust in everything. Okay, I know its me initiated the break up, but I didn't know what has got into me. I just wanna be alone..yet, I hate loneliness ):
Well, I don't know how to express myself either. Just... ENVY. Envy of all my girlf-s around me. JiaHui got Gary, lasted for about 2years already? Denise got Ian, going 9 months? Edwiana got MingWei? Hais, everyone is settling down. But why? Why can't I? I mean, not that I don't have that guy. But, he just ain't the type. I just wanna settle down. Its seems so...
DIFFICULT. Maybe Mr Right is really hard to find. I cried, I cried at times. But I just wanna everything to go right. I ain't strong, I'm
weak. I don't wanna be anyone substitute either. Who will be there?
I know, I know he will. But the feeling ain't right. Sorry.I hate what I am now. I'm not like this. I know it. I used to be a very cheerful & outgoing girl. Now, I'm just some random girl, keeping everything to myself. At first when I just started out in Poly, I'm damn hyper. Even my classmates says so. As time goes by, I kept quiet. While changing class or school ends, ear piece will definitely in my ear. I just wanna be alone. I don't know why either. I don't care how people look at me anymore. I really hate what I am now. I am.
I wanna be like last time.
Whenever I thought I've found him, the chance just flew by. Its either I chose the wrong path or the time ain't right. Urgh, I'm really vexed. I wanna settle down ):Exams coming, I hope I do well. I really hope. Please, please, I wanna get into aerospace. That's my only wish for now... I wanna prove them wrong.
Working tomorrow & I'm still awake. Shit it, I hope I can wake up. Haha! Omgod, I'm going emotional again ):
He used to cheer me up. But he's gone too, MIA-ed ==" Hais, neverminds. Believe in yourself girl, look at the
dolphins (:
I just wanna someone there... Looking at people w/ couple tees, ring, watch & etc. I'm just so envy. I wanna find the right one.
Stay strong girl.Please, please don't be so upset. If fate wanna us together, we will.
